LET IT ALL OUT
in my 18 years of existence, I never had the courage to show how weak I am. I always come out strong but honestly, deep inside I'm slowly breaking down. I don't know, maybe I'm just scared that no one might care. That's why I always pretend to be fine around people who thought I don't need them, people who always think that nothing's wrong with me.
I'm not asking for too much. All i want is an ear that'll listen, a mind that will understand and... a sincere heart. I guess no one might notice how much i wanted a hug each time I'm left alone with someone. And at night I close my eyes, forcing myself to sleep. But the pain keeps me awake and the hard part is I can't seem to find relief.
All this time i've been quite about how i truly feel. That silence became... my loudest cry. But no one will ever know how hurtful it may be, no one. Because tomorrow, if i ever wake up, I'll flash that false smile again. Wait for someone who will be sensitive enough to see how broken that smile is.
Pretend to be fine until nightime... and feel the pain all over again. xxx
